So here's my story. I met my man way back in grade school - he was in 8th grade, I was in 7th. We were pretty much each other's firsts on a lot of things: first date, first dance, first love... you get the picture. We dated on and off throughout high school, during which we had more than our fair share of ups and downs including a final break up due to his infidelity. We were both young, had different interests (read: I was a goody goody and he was into partying and probably on a road leading in a very bad direction). After graduation, we went our separate ways for the most part, but had mutual friends so we ran into each other here and there and heard about what was going on in the other's life every now and again. The last thing I heard was that he joined the military and was in Iraq on deployment.
Fast forward to this past January. I had just broken up with my boyfriend of about 18 months on Christmas. My twin sister/best friend and I were having a girls' night, drinking some and reminiscing about the past; particularly, high school. That night, my man was mentioned several times as we had shared more than a few good laughs and memories with him. After she left, he lingered on my mind for the next couple of days so I decided to look him up on MySpace and send him a quick message just saying hello and that I was thinking of him while he was on deployment, etc.
I was not prepared for his response. In a 4-5 page email, he caught me up on what was new in his life: that he had joined the Corps, was on his second deployment, what was new with his friends, family... then he continued on to apologize for things that had happened in the past. We start talking via Skype (gotta love modern technology!) and before long he confessed that he never really got over me. I began to realize that there was still a spark on my end as well. I'm not going to lie and say I thought about him all the time over the past 5-6 years, but the more we spoke, the more I realized how much I liked this guy.
A month ago we officially became a couple. We've also decided that I'm going to move cross-country while he finishes his time in the Corps (he'll be done in January 2010) and see where things lead. Yes, I know we're moving very fast. Yes, I have been cautioned to guard my heart and be careful by numerous friends and family. At the same time, I truly feel like this is going to be a good step for me. I'm excited about moving to warm weather and to start having some fun. I'm excited to give this relationship one more try now that we are both a bit older and a little more mature. I'm excited about having fun, becoming a little more laid back and enjoying life for what it is because, let's face it - in the end, life is short and you only get to do this once. So we might as well take chances and give it our all, is how I feel.
Now, my Marine is safely at home (he just landed yesterday!) and I am about 2000 miles away because I have to finish finals before I get to go see him. [8 more days until I'm on a plane his way!!!] I grow a little more anxious each day because I haven't seen him in so many years and while our chemistry clicks through the internet and over the phone, there is still the chance that it won't be that way in person; I'm getting ready to move my life across the country and start this new chapter (the first in my "romance novel"), leaving behind friends, family and everything I am familiar with; I'm weary about opening my heart again and I'm nervous about really getting into my career. Add to all of that becoming acquainted with being a military girlfriend (sometimes, I swear what he is saying is an entirely different language) and I've got a full plate on my hands!
But you know what?? I'm totally looking forward to every crazy minute of it. <3
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